day-33

HUFF.

I've never felt so frustrated and annoyed with someone like this before. I can't wrap my head around how he thinks and makes decisions. His primary job is supposed to be making decisions.

What’s most irritating is when he asks me, " What do you guys do all day?" As someone who's almost going crazy every day dealing with clients and other tasks, I don't appreciate questions like that. 

Doesn't sending files every evening or providing a register list mean anything to him as work? Does he just ignore it? Does he even bother to read and understand what I've been working on before signing?

He might as well ask, "WHAT IS YOUR JOB?" 

Seriously, I'm so annoyed. 

Another thing that baffles me is when we ask him something, he'll give an answer, but it's not his own decision or response. He'll ask someone else and relay that answer. He won't take any action unless someone prods or triggers him. Initiative on his own? Impossible.

I'm just puzzled and don't understand why he earns such a big salary when he doesn't even care about us in the front lines. All the decisions he makes come from discussions with employees behind the scenes. One day, we were asked, "Do you want more work?" The task was usually done in the back office, but this genius wants us to handle it.

I've never complained about the workload assigned to me. I'd accept it, grumble a bit, but I'd never tell the boss I don't want the job. As long as it falls within my job description, I'll do it well. This person, however, agrees when an employee rejects a task. 

Isn't it embarrassing to be controlled by your subordinates?

Everything is asked to someone else. What's the function of his brain? 

And this evening, during a meeting, he suddenly asks and sheer into threats, saying if I can't come in the morning earlier, then I should leave, and he'll choose someone else. Damn. That's a slightly aggravating ultimatum for me.

It gets even more infuriating because it seems it didn't originate from his (again) own thoughts. Someone else commented, and he thought it's better to replace us. Is there even someone willing to take it? For now, I want to stay in the front office until I reach my goal.

I'll prove to him that I can come in the morning. But if that happens, I'll leave and quit working at 4:00 PM.

Fuck everybody.

What's even more ridiculous is when he said, "If anyone has a problem with the assigned tasks, discuss it, don't talk behind others' backs." Seriously. Then I was thinking, is chatting with colleague and sharing stories that he means by talking behind someone's back? Or is there really a snake in the grass here?

Hey, even you talk about people not related to work. You're an adult, older than me for sure, but commenting on someone's social media posts through chat is embarrassing. You should be ashamed of that.

I wouldn't be this upset if he had used a less threatening choice of words. He could have said it nicely and not in front of the forum. Are we really that bad? You never talk to us either. In fact, leaving early in the morning is not a bad thing. By leaving early, I can certainly come home earlier. By leaving early, I can get other things done first. There is always a positive side, it depend on how we look at it.

Wow, I've been expelling a lot of negative energy this week. I hope this is the last week I feel negative energy around me. I want to be a positive person, at least for myself. Dealing with things like this takes energy, and my energy shouldn't be wasted on such nonsense.

Bye.